Lately life hasn't been going so good. I've been lied to,hurt,decieved,grounded, and all sorts of other things.

I was talking to this guy and then he moved, and I was sooo upset, but I couldn't show it, well we started talking everynight, and eventually he decided to come back to florida before he went to basic training for the navy. We had so much fun the first couple days he was here, I loved being with him, and now that I had a car to drive I could see him whenever. Then one night I went to get him so we could go to a party, and he was just weird, and he wasn't being nice. He was acting like my ex, and that was the one thing I couldn't let happen; I couldn't go through that pain again. Well we began to fight, then when we got to where the party was, he blew up at me and went crazy snached up his stuff told me to leave that I was a hoe and he didn't want to see me or be anywhere near me. I was shocked. After all, he'd told me he loved, me and that he wanted to be with me more than anyone, that he needed me. Of course being on the rebound and with a heart still on the mend, I believe it, just to be able to have some love me, felt great. Then a few days later we talked about everything and I explained to him, that the reason I had gotten so upset, was because he brought back the memories I had tried with everything I have to forget. Then everything was fine, we had made plans to hang out later in the week. Then, when I called him the next day like he told me to, he blew me off, and thats all he's done since. I did exactly what I promised myself I wouldn't, believed a guy and got hurt.

Work isn't going so great, I miss Warren, school's fixing to start again, I'm not quite ready to deal with everyones shit agian so soon. I guess the bright side is that it's my last year.

I made a decision to quit smoking, ITS SO HARD, I've cut most my old friend's out of my liefstyle, so I'm hoping that'll help.

I feel like I'm missing so much out of my life. Today has not been a good day. I'm hoping tomorrow will be better.